prayer.
I am learning a lot lately….about a lot of things! A big lesson I am learning right now is about prayer. I mean, we’ve been doing a series the past 10 months about prayer at our church, but I guess it’s just now sinking in. 
I am going to be extremely candid in this post…judge me if you will, just trying to keep things real.
I have been a Christian since I was…6? I have grown up in the church, I have never strayed from the church, I was a missionary, worked in ministry, married to a Pastor…you get the point – my entire life has been in the church. So, that pretty much means I am a perfect Christian. Oh wait…that’s totally not the direction I am going with this one. 
My reason for saying that is I feel like even though I have been a Christian for 20 years (whoa…), I feel like I am JUST learning HOW to pray. Yes, I am really good at the “Lord, bless this, bless me, bless that…” and praying when someone is sick, and all of those great things, but I don’t think that is how God is calling us to pray. We’re already pretty damn blessed (excuse the language, but darn just didn’t fit there…), even in the hard times. I think His hope for us is to be so desperate for Him that we can’t HELP but talk to Him….constantly.
In the past few weeks as I really think about Resonate and what the next several years look like for us, I can’t help but pray for it. I don’t mean asking God to bring in the numbers, or to “show me the money”, help us be “relevant”, but I mean praying that He absolutely CONSUMES Chris and I (and everyone else involved) in this process that our lives reflect the Church without even having to tell people. I remember Chris saying one time that there is a church who doesn’t call themselves “church” but their community started calling them that…they were Christ. They were being the hands and feet of Jesus and their (non-Christian) community recognized that from their actions and their love…THAT is church. Let every thought drift to the Lord, communicate with Him, be DESPERATE for Him and who He is….I want my life to look like that….and I am really far away from that.
I want to be infectious in my prayer life, a warrior. I often find myself thinking “oh man, it’s been awhile since I’ve prayed, I should probably squeeze that in today.” Wait, WHAT? Did the Pastors wife just say that? Yeah, I did. That is a big battle for me. In the busy-ness of work, businesses, working out and social life (um…and reality TV…ugh!), my prayer life often takes a backseat (or sometimes shoved into the trunk…) to other things in my life and that is SERIOUSLY messed up. I am so thankful the Lord is in constant pursuit of my heart and quietly (or sometimes not so quietly) reminds me of how much I NEED Him. I need to talk to Him…I NEED to be with Him…I only hope my life reflects that.
So, your turn…what does prayer look like to you? What do you WANT it to look like?
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