vulnerable.
You know, I didn’t realize until today how vulnerable I have been feeling lately. Church planting is hard.
We have been having SO many conversations with friends asking them to be part of Resonate and I am just realizing that this is a very, VERY vulnerable place to be…which I hate. I absolutely know that God has called Chris and I to be a part of Resonate, but it still terrifies me every day. We are pretty much gathering friends and acquaintances, sharing our heart and our vision, and waiting to be accepted or “rejected” (for lack of a better word)…and that is scary. I am a fairly private person so pouring out what God is speaking to me right now to people and being challenged on that is terrifying to me…but it is so good for me. I am able to verbalize what I am clearly learning from the Lord and dream with others on what God is going to radically do in this city through Resonate…and that is exciting.
On the flip side of all of this, I also realize we are putting others in a vulnerable place. Asking our friends to consider leaving their church homes, places they are comfortable and have deep community and roots to follow us into a crazy adventure that doesn’t even have a concrete landing place yet. But you know what’s amazing? People are catching the vision and coming on board. Yes, I know some people will not feel called and stay where they are, and that is totally fine, but my prayer is that everyone we ask to be a part of this deep rooted core “family” seriously seek the Lord about this decision. I hope that our challenges to our friends and community to be a part of this movement will draw them closer to the Lord than they have ever been before. It’s amazing to hear what He has to say when you are being asked to do something uncomfortable.
About 2 years ago we were asked by some dear friends to pray about being part of a church plant. At the time we were both fired up about the possibility to be a part of something so incredible, yet both us us clearly heard the Lord saying no…which was weird. We wanted to be part of something like that, why would the Lord say no? Now it’s amazing to see what that obedience is going to mean. God has amazing plans for each of our lives and it’s amazing to see what those plans are when we really sit down and seek Him and listen.
It’s going to be uncomfortable, radical and challenging…that really scared be in the beginning…but now it excites me. I feel like I have never had to depend on the Lord so fully for something and I know my relationship with Him is going to be radically different this time next year…and that thrills me…and scares me a little…
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